Tuesday, April 19, 2016

Back to front

A sunset view from my deck and a sunrise from my front porch, I seek solace these days in the beauty I am blessed to have from my door.

Wednesday, April 13, 2016

A dog's day

From laying in the morning sun for Ellie, to a training session for Cash in new public places, to play time in the yard, to the bliss of a tired 9 month old puppy....dog love♡

Monday, April 11, 2016

Beauty in the pain

Life has been hard these last months. Fear, uncertainty, pain, grief, loss, they have been my companions, my tormentors.

I notice this view from my backyard and long to feel joy that I have before at the sight. For now I will be grateful that I notice it and can still recognize the possibility of joy.

Monday, April 4, 2016

Rest in Peace my sweet baby girl


After a month of hope, despair, laughter, love and tears, my baby girl went to heaven today.  Although it has been exhausting if it would have saved her, I would have continued with her care every 6 hours forever.  She was tired and she needed to rest, and although my heart knows this, there is a piece of my heart which she took with her and will forever belong to her.  I love you baby girl.  We miss you and will miss you forever. 


Until one has loved an animal a part of one's soul remains unawakened. Anatole France

Tuesday, March 29, 2016

Tuesday, March 22, 2016

In the midst of a crazy world

Happy to share the view with you tonight, it was all the more special because we shared it together!

Monday, March 14, 2016

How I Know my Puppy is Smarter than me


Days in the life of Cash

Living with four dogs is a daily balance between crazy love and just plain crazy.  I spend a lot of time working with my dogs, not just because I love to hanging out with them, but also to maintain my precarious position of being the human in charge.
A great deal of their training work happens in the early morning hours while I work through emails and attempt to get some reading done.  There was a time I used to get quite a bit of reading done that was PC, which is Pre Cash. 
Every morning as I get out of bed and get them all fed and let out, I don my old gray hooded sweatshirt.  The sweatshirt is the uniform of my morning training sessions, a clicker in the left pocket and kibble in the right pocket.  I am ready to capture the behaviors I want and reinforce a few they know well.

Meet Cash, the most adorable and precocious puppy I could never have imagined. 






The problem with being Cash’s Human is he is so damn smart, so curious and so busy, I can’t possibly begin to anticipate what he will do next.  Which means he is regularly doing things I used to think were impossible for a dog.
One of his tricks is his game of treating me as though I am his human Pez dispenser.
 In five years of loading the sweatshirt pockets none of my dogs, I mean zero, have ever stuck their face all the way into the sweatshirt pocket to help themselves to the training kibble.  Cash, as usual is the exception. I can’t even say for sure when he started to play this game, it seems as though he just always has. 
 As I am sitting at my computer he runs up behind me and shoves his little puppy face into the pocket, grabbing as many pieces of kibble as he can.  He is not only smart enough to have figured out how to get the kibble on the first try every time,  he is also smart enough to hold it in his mouth while he runs as fast as he can out of my reach, then finding a spot to stop and eat the prize!
Recently I have started to outsmart him, having learned to listen for him and when I hear him coming I tuck the pocket in, thwarting his efforts.  Smart human!
And then I realized he is still smarter than me….
Cash has a distinctive pitter patter of his paws when he is up to no good.  I don’t know how to describe it other than to say he has two ways of running. There is the sound of him running when he is just playing, not up to any mischief. Then there is the distinctive sound of his run if he has something he is not supposed to.  Which is often the case.
Yesterday, as I was got up for the hundredth time that morning to see what he had and to do the chase of getting it from him, it struck me!!  He is so much smarter than me and has trained me well.  Just moments before I had shut down the sweatshirt pocket when I heard him coming.  And as I tried to entice him toward me with a sing song voice and a treat, before he ran out the dog door with yet another one of my gloves I realized the pattern he had trained me into.
Every time I shut down the sweatshirt pocket, preventing his little face from the kibble self-serve, he takes off and within moments I hear his pitter patter run into a different part of the house.  This guarantees I will get up to see what he has and most often wind up offering a treat as an exchange for his contraband.  As he stood poised by the dog door, glove dangling from his mouth, tail up and wagging, butt higher in the air, I realized with absolute horror he had me.  He totally had me.


Here is the formula I suddenly saw:



  • Human shuts down pocket, kibble denied.
  • Cash takes off running, finding something forbidden, making sure he is not unnoticed.
  • Human chases Cash to rescue item before it’s either ruined or he escapes out the dog door with it.
  • Cash gets kibble and also receives bonus of human coming to find him AND playing a game with him.



I guess when I was taking video of him demonstrating his ability at 7 weeks old to outsmart the dog pen holding him captive I should have known.
I would like to say I will at some point be one step ahead of this dog, however I hang my head in defeat knowing it’s just not likely.  He is just so much smarter than I am. 


Thursday, March 10, 2016

A surprise delivery

Another bright spot in my day at work

Saturday, March 5, 2016

A weekend surprise

A late text Friday,  an afternoon spent laughing,  sharing, remembering, and creating new moments.
So many years, we have more years of history than most marriages.....you walked into my life so many years ago and in the first minute I knew you were someone amazing. I am so grateful for all you have shown me, all you have had the guts to say and for the ways you have been brave enough to be a true friend to me. Until next time my friend. Xo

Monday, February 29, 2016

Sunday, February 28, 2016

Finally!!!

Finally got to run outside, had someone to watch the little furry hellion!! Amazing!!!

Tuesday, February 23, 2016

Doggie dinner bell

When Ellie sounds the dinner bell they all line up.

Saturday, February 20, 2016

Amazing ladies, amazing night, amazing fun

So many emotions. Love, pride, connection, gratitude....the list is endless.
My girls of Esprit having fun supporting a great cause and the band Mistrial. Love  love love